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Name: Cheng
Country: Singapore
Metro: Singapore
Birthday: 10/11/1981
Gender: Male
Interests: Football on sundays
music
composition
singing in the rain
Quest for the higher Power
Chasing my future
Expertise: film alchemist
football micro management
(Phd) humourlogist
DIe Art of Film making
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Media
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Member Since:
10/1/2005
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The Sun reminded me of humility
as it set on one side of my face, as i head onward with my script process.
My third person angle showed me, me, with shadowed slightly inset eyes,
staring on the floor as i walked forward
in the end everything is nothing but hardwork.
But there is a TWIST here. Right here right now.
For who told me all this?
I suddenly I realized that i did not know
which voice was Ding an and which voice was Diecreation.
Have we switched roles? or is there a third? A third that would make two whole again?
Sometimes in anguish, anxiety, wasteful worrying, we indulge into the darkness
we get tempted by sin, as they seem the easier way out of solutions when, there is none.
But when the dust settles, and always, when the dust settles,
we learnt that the easiest road to success is the longest.
The humility, whatever the case, being true to ourselves,
and keeping faith in the road of the simple traveller.
in retrospective, it is easy to blame the wild side, blame Diecreation for the chaos that he brings.
but then as i was walking the other day,
the voice came again.
This time, THIS VOICE spoke truth. I stood there debating with myself, and everything it said was right
"Humble. Simple approach to life, remember contentment? Remember the concept OF happiness equated to contentment. OF love - to synergy, understanding, soul-to soul conversation, of whispers without words?
These are the values you have always believed in, and in believing in them, has already rendered you,
The one who always so seeked to be unique, Unique." Said the voice.
And I heard this voice. This voice of conscience, that took a long holiday for so long, and I knew that it was right.
Perhaps it is beautiful. Maybe i am learning how to contain the chaos, whilst embarking on the road of the true.
I have seen the untrue of people. And felt how unhappy this life, of pretence, in order for a greater achievement
that in the end is rendered meaningless?
At this juncture, am i right? Are there no grey areas in truth? That people can do certain things to force an outcome?
And yet, the true conscience inside me says, "The answer is absolutely. you can see it, you know it, you are actually not confused, you know full well of fakeness, trickery, sin, that these things once employed, will also render your ultimate goal, as empty as your methods. Thus making victory fake. Trust in your instincts, your truth, your honest road, and your outcomes will also come honest."
There it is again, it just typed it. Did you see it?
Sigh out....
Man, i am strange.
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Diecreation's journal 5th September 2008
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Yes i was little bit away, too far, yet too near,
and for the longest time,
watching Ding An
dedicate his life to something and throwing everything else out the window, any emotion, any petty thing, any hate, love, friendship, he had, he threw out, to make his film work...
And,
Through fogged up glass, air con Orchard cineleisure shopping mall lobby, a heavy rain outside ouring,
I see him
standing there,
in front of 1000s of people walking by,
finally facing up to the reasons why his Passion n Sacrifice could not be justified.
Someone did,
someone, a Miss niceheart,
counselled him with a,
"do u want 100 people to see and say they love your film, or do u want thousands to watch it and say it sux."
Sometimes people with nice hearts, have really tricky questions...plunging the poor confused Ding into a deeper sea, with stranger n uglier sea creatures not yet discovered.
So I decided Ding An is not very capable of handling the situation,
always nice n soft the way he is,
and quiet,
and evasive to his environment,
and a visionary that is afraid of stepping on a single housefly to inflict
the true change the world needs.
Diecreation is different.
And so here I am once more, whilst Director Ding an lays in the ashes, sleeping with the fishes, trying to sum up a new energy once more from his endless bowls of instant noodles, i am here.
Day by day i find myself becoming more like Rorschach, of me long awaited WATCHMEN movie, constantly feeling that the world is in decay, and yet insisting on saving it, (or not) - i like his game of choice(3rd person perspective), just like the youth of today have that choice.
(cracks fingers)
OK OK
So shall we get started?
Sincerely sincerely,
Diecreation
"Live a Creation, Die a cReation"
Strange fella this...
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| Got the 300 DVD. 
If Transformers was a movie that i can say was my MOVIE of the year. 300 was a movie of my life. Yes. 300 came out on DVD, both my brother and me rushed to buy it. Not for the Violenece, so please listen, FOR THE its passion for defining what makes a real Man. The strength of the human race. the power of a person's determination has always championed my deepest of desires. Leonidas, the king of Sparta, the name itself implying, born of Lion Breed. Look at their training. The heartlessness of discarding an imperfect child, the 7 year old commando style training where not everyone makes it alive after being dumped in the jungle with wolves. BUT To say that their sacrifice makes them cold, to say that they are not of loving race, are only words of a fool. They die, they bleed for a greater cause, 1) to be the BEST that the human condition can be - Look at their bodies - Ridiculously strong. 2)In order to protect the ones they love, so much so that the wife of the king can tell him, "come back with your shield or on it" Personally this transcends the uselessness of petty love and lust. It makes the heartbreak n sadness of all other things turn into dust. I draw strength from this film. To be the best that i can possibly be, not for me, but for all around me, before my life is up. And I urge all my friends, and anyone reading this now. To understand that to dwell in darkness or unhappiness will only attract more unhappiness. To dwell in Work, is only an excuse for hating Love. Dwell in Purpose. Dwell with a smile on your face, the calmness and aloofness of ronaldinho dancing past an opponent just because he loves football. Dwell in the happiness of Dashing towards finding your own definition of what is the BEST of you. Dwell but never let a sad thought enter. Never a dark past revisited. Keep moving forward with that BRAVE smile on your face that the world is not working for you, but YOU can make it work for you Dwell in happiness in order to finally find it. especially you. Sincerely DIng An Films | | |
| Wedding of a close friend
It's been a while since i blogged or did wedding videos. A very good friend who once rescued me out of loneliness requested, so i helped him. Eternal blessings Alvin.
I always learn from Weddings.
1st question is always how they met.
2nd is always What does a man have to be like to find someone worthy?
To be truly honest, i know that i have never had even a single meaningful relationship before. I would eventually be loyal to her. I know. But she is so hard to find as it seems the world just does not have someone that expresses a mutual interest.
Simple criteria: 2 people who are interested and wanna start something.
my friend....my age....MARRIED ! and i am here, not having had 1 single taste of what love even is?
WINDOW SHOPPING PRISON:
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i am in a prison, and there are window shoppers looking at me. I am smiling as hard as i can, as if selling myself short.
But no matter how hard i smile or dont smile, improve myself or not. No one tries to even open the door. Yes, some have tried, but i guess things work by a simple law - the feeling must be mutual, or else it will never be eternal anyway. I understand this more these days. I walk away faster than in the past.
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But after 24 hours of bashing myself up, i recovered. I always had that self healing powers of Wolverine. Really fast. Though i hate it, cos it means no one needs to heal me so they can just discard me. It saves me i admit.
i decided.
:) to smile.
And be patient just for a longer while
Nothing is more important than getting my impossible but Life changing film, made.
Nothing is more important than releasing my book.
So i say this to you. My wife in the future whom i have not yet met.
I have dropped all childish things
and AM racing towards you now.
Wait for me
sincerely
Ding AN
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How long ago did i set out to be a film maker?
I was also a musician. A game designer. A story writer...
Like the sands of time in a cruel hour glass, the sands did not stop dripping away.
Everyday that i tried to become a film maker, i fell sideways, got distracted.
I was attacked from every possible angle:
physical,
my own variance of abilities: being able to do tooooo many things without focus..
work, endless pursuit of moeny
people telling u , u'll neve rmake it,
and even emotional temptations - a shot at love none eternal -
These days i hang a cheap T-shirt i bought from Bugis....it has a beautiful picture of a LION on it.
Actually, not this one. this one is more proud. The Lion T shirt i got, he is focused. His eyes transfixed upon the glancer of the t-shirt. He never loses focus... i like that
Every morning, I stare into the Lion's eyes
trying to find myself inside his courage.
Encouraging myself to never to give up.
I will get this film done...
And i will...
The best way to talk about time is.
I succeed Today. not tomorrow. Today.
Sincerely
Diecreation
Road to the greatest film maker who ever lived...
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